Caring for someone hurt so much....

It's not the lie that upset me but it's the thought that from now on I can't trust you.

I was in such a great shock yesterday. Just thinking of it make me cringe. To let myself wallow in tears really disgusts me.

Have you ever been betrayed to somebody that you are very close? That you consider as a partner? Nakama da you. You won't do anything bad to your nakama right?

If Luffy, he will fight to death for his nakama but this is real life.. not some anime or manga.

God, I think I need to put myself on the ground and re-evaluate my situation and where I'm headed now. I cannot be on Skypiea for too long. I know it's a wonderful place but being on a limbo won't bring me anywhere.

I know this is the first time I put an English song in my blog, but this is to someone that I care but..... the song tells all.

Oh, how about a round of applause?
Yeah, standing ovation? Ooh, oh yeah
Yeah y-yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You?re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

Don?t tell me you?re sorry 'cause you?re not
And baby when I know you?re only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
But now it?s time to go, curtain?s finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it?s over now
(But it?s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talking? 'bout, ?Girl, I love you," "You?re the one"
This just looks like a rerun
Please, what else is on?

Don?t tell me you?re sorry 'cause you?re not
And baby when I know you?re only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
But now it?s time to go, curtain?s finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it?s over now
(But it?s over now)
Go on and take a bow

Oh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
(Goes to you)
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out

How about a round of applause?
A standing ovation?

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
Now it?s time to go, curtain?s finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it?s over now
(But it?s over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now