Sore wa totsuzen, arashi no you ni.....

The feeling in the morning  after a restless night, after watching a good jdrama and you can't sleep overthinking about it....that mellow feeling, I somewhat hate it.

But still it won't keep me from doing what I love. Last night, I watched an old jdrama from 2004.

This drama tells of a housewife who has been married for seven years, they don't have children, living with their parents in their flowershop and still lives a lively life. This is somewhat similar to me. She is happily married but she still wonder if it's still enough. So she start working as a part timer in a magazine's publishing office.

And on one rainy day. she had a fateful encounter with a high school boy, Takuma (Yamapi <3). Takuma is a teacher at a dance school. And that's how it all began.

For some reason, being a 30++ woman, eventhough I'm not a housewife, I somehow can relate to Makiko Esumi's character in this drama.

She is a strong woman, a good housewife and a no doubt a good wife to her husband. On top of that she has a wonderful husband. But meeting Takuma sparks something in her. Maybe it was the yearning of youthful years?

I like the ending and how firm she is in rejecting Takuma despite how she feels. All end well and I think 18 year old Takuma has a long life to live and he will definitely meet other girls but he won't forget her ever. She's hard to forget and I can also understand how a 18 year old can fall in love with older woman.
I always wonder what will I do if another love comes after marriage? You can't help feel something especially for a highschool boy as hot as Yamapi, right??? Hahaha.. I think that's one of the reason why they are so many aunties fan out there who loves Idol & Idol Groups and I can foresee my future. HAHAHA.

Yes, there will be times in your life your heart will flutters, and you seek some kind of excitement in your life especially if you have been enjoying the so called stability of marriage life. I know I do and I'm yearning for it now since I've reached my 30's. Those youthful years of mine are so exciting that some moment or certain someone is just hard to forgot.

But I still think cheating is bad. You can feel something but such feeling should not be nurtured.It's just a fleeting feeling and some will become passing memories.

"In a perfect world, when she is with him, she would be wishing she was with me. When she looked at him, she would be looking at me. When she smiled at him, her smile would be for me. When she thought about someone, she would be thinking of me. In a perfect world, she would realize that he wasn't the one she was supposed to be with and I would still be standing here waiting for her when she finally knows this."

"But this isn't a perfect world and I do get hurt. I smile when I feel like crying. I act like I'm okay when I'm falling apart inside and I let it go. I let you go. I move on because there's nothing else I can do. And somehow I wish I never met you because then I could go sleep at night not knowing there is someone like you out there. How can you simply be friends with someone when every time you look at them, you're thinking about how much more you really want..."